New Day, New Life

It has been almost 2 years since my last post. Much has happened since then. I was happily married to the love of my life. I still am married to that man, and have been for 27 years. However, he is no longer the love of my life. He is having hes 2nd affair in 2 years. I left him a month ago. She can have him.

The first affair devastated me. I could not function. I could not eat or sleep. Every time I tried to eat something I would choke due to the fear inside me. At that time I weighed 300 pounds, and could not get a job. I had no idea how I was going to support myself. I had no idea HOW to support myself.

I found out about the 2nd affair in late November. My father-in-law was here visiting. My husband left him with me and went to Texas to meet and spend the weekend with his new girlfriend (he lied, said he was divorced so he could get on eHarmony, so he could look for someone else on purpose). He thinks his dad doesn't know what he's done, but he does. The next weekend, he left his dad with me again, and went to spend the weekend with HER. I never let on that I knew about the affair. I just forwarded the emails between the two of them to my secret email address to use as evidence. You see, he is in the military, and could be sent to prison for committing adultery.

In October, 2009, I had a gastric bypass. I have lost 150 pounds. I have a full time job, that barely pays me enough to survive. I will survive, though, because I am trusting God to take care of me. My husband things that I am out to take him to the cleaners, but I'm not. He is going to give me something, though. He is not just going to throw me away with nothing after 27 years, so he can go off with his girlfriend like I don't matter. I MATTER. Maybe not to him, but I matter to the Lord. I pray every day for him to vindicate me in this situation. I don't want revenge, but I do want to be vindicated. I want the truth to come out. I want the whole world to see who and what he really is, and I want it to come out without me having to do or say a thing. I believe the Lord will do that for me.

Anyway, I am thinner, working and taking care of myself, and so much happier. Life is so much less stressful, and all the drama that is Ernie is gone from my life. Soon it will be all gone. I can't wait. God is indeed merciful. I KNOW He will take care of me, and I know he will vindicate me. Glory to His name forever.